i spend my life waiting.
i’m feeling a bit revived. like someone took a tiny ray of the sun and put it in my dreams. i like rainbows, a lot. that honest way they move me when i see them, is what i want to feel everyday - for every minute i live.
i want to know who gave me the sun.
there’s an ambition in me now, one i think i lost for some moments, when i got myself lost in some moments. i feel it bubbling under my skin and deep in my heart. the physical feeling from the smells and the sounds and the memories. the weeks lost in journeys and those people with their stories so full. the cherry that made it all worthwhile.
so grateful, i am. humbled, too. it’s not often you get this lucky - at least i don’t think. so i count my blessings one by one, day by day. you don’t know what tomorrow will bring.
i lay here in a moment that feels like grace. if i could float i think i would. because i’ve found my plans again. i’ll wait, everyday, for however long it takes, to know that i’ll be seeing rainbows.
keep feeding me those little rays of sun.